my life’s goal is to teach kids and put smiles on peoples faces. I’m far from a saint but god has me on his list of trying to be one. i cuss a lot and imma kinda bi-polar but i keep both at ease. people see me as a the happy guy but thats what they only see. take a peek inside my head and see what I’m holding back like depressing thoughts, anger, and pain. they’re not taking over anytime soon because i have the thought of kids looking up to me like a superhero and i have this wonder girl in my life that i need see soon and thats keeping me on this path of good shit. i know i don’t go to church a lot and god is telling me you’ll get there soon but some of the karma from your past has to take some its toll from you first. he knows somethings aren’t cut out for me like straight forward sitting down or taking peoples orders. he knows i need something so i can teach the youth the difference between good and bad. Im an artist and a big brother so i know HOW to be creative and protective of a young persons mind. I don’t if any of that shit made since but thats how i feel.
I need to get away from this place like hell. my heart was born here but it doesn’t want to be here. i need one day, one week, one month, fuck it a year. i need to go so i can find me some cheers. i don’t hate this place i just don’t belong here. hated by some of my homie and used by some of my fams. i just like damn… damn. one girl keeps me going but she outta state hopefully one ill vein that place. but for now i’ll just stay here and kinda chill living with a continuous headache popping advil pills. imma mentor the youth for a while so i can keep some type hometown smile. but once u get out of a place so small and go somewhere so big. visiting that small place going back there aint shit
i can’t stop thinking about you. i wanna just stay up all night and talk to you. I know a lot about you but i wanna know more. i wanna hear share stories about our childhood. i wanna hear the happiest and saddest stories. FUCK….I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH